God, I can't do this alone. I can't do anything but make things worse by myself. Anything good I've ever done has only been through your help. If You are love, then I am hate. It is only with You that I can rid me of myself. I can no longer rely on my own strength to do anything. I need You. I need You more than I need breath. I need You more than I need water. I need You more than I need food. I need You more than I need anything. Without You, I am simply dust.
I've spent too long being myself, and just want to be You now. I just want to be like You. I just want there to be so much of You in me, that there is no longer me, just You. I want there to be so much of You that anything that I touch that is not of You is completely consumed by You. I just want to please You.
I need You. I need You to chastise me. I need You to form me. I need You to make me. I need You to change me. I need Your glory to be what fills my temple. I need You to carry me. I need You to heal me. I need You to light my path. I need You to be the very breath in my lungs and the very beat in my heart. Above all else, I need You to love me.
Hold me now.
I love You.
Hey, you are pretty swell, too. Remember God created you and CALLED YOU GOOD! Of course there is no life without God, but you aren't ALL bad, 'cause you are God's creation! I'll be praying that with God's help, you are more able to be the YOU that God truly created you to be and not a you that you construct out of fear, anxiety, or pain. Because you are God's! :)
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